why this blog has been so dead

Because i have a lot more to write about Eliza than about myself..and even if it's abt me or ppl around me...it's still so related to Eliza in some way or another. Maybe one day i'll be back here to update stuff and keep it more alive.
Else...you can read more here.

robbed :(

My salary came early....and the bonus was a great bonus (which i wasn't expecting really..cos i don't really expect small private companies to even give 13th month bonus...oh but my company is different...considering it is closed for 14 days(!!!) so cool rite?) ok but because it came so early i didn't expect it...and the amount i always maintain in that bank to 'avoid' monthly deduction (loong story that i don't wanna elaborate here)...is suddenly beefed up. and in 3 days my bank account surged up and got sucked out of it's life. :(

now i have to survive on less than my normal amount of money for the next 1 1/2 months. *wail*

Temporaily not blogging here

Currently my life is revolving mostly around Eliza...especially as i do my confinement...which is around 1 month. So watever i blog is mostly about Eliza...which you can find more here, her own blog...or my pregnancy blog which is now all-abt-Eliza-blog.

but...some pics... :)

Eliza when she's awake...lots and lots of expressions..maybe i'll do a whole photo series of her expressions....


Daddy bottle-feeding her...

Her fast asleep in my arms...


Me & Eliza


Ahhh~~~

Waiting

It's been a week and i have taken leave off work, so i've not been at work the whole week. It was a great time to rest and really just get bored. Maybe it's the time before the storm when i'll be really busy once baby Eliza arrives. Sometimes it gets kinda weird waiting...because i feel like i forget what i'm waiting for. I've read my stuff, prepared what i could prepare, so...what else is there? I've also gotten used to my size that i do really sleep quite well most of the time. :P so I'm just waiting for the real thing. 

Still i need to submit to God that His timing for Eliza to come out is His good timing, something i cannot predict, something i have almost no control over (unless i decide to go for a c-section..which i don't want to). still we'll see how on monday when we go to the gynae for my next appt, whether to wait out another week or to induce. it would prob drive me nuts if i have to wait another week. haaa..but at least i know Eliza's safe and growing healthy inside. honestly Eliza's really quite active, esp at night. and i'll feel my belly and watched amused at her nudging around inside me. 

you know God is so deep and mysterious that somehow man still don't really know what really starts off labour naturally. pregnancy is one beauty and mystery of life that God created to create man. from how the cells combine, how the body changes to accommodate growing a new life (all that hormones, extra blood flow, placenta, etc etc etc), and how He has created the body of a women to bring this new life in us into the world and to give food only suited for a baby. amazing! 

ok, so i'll await in patience for the time, going into labour is not something i can predict, only God knows, and it's His beautiful time. See u soon Eliza! 

Happy 2yrs to us!

It's been a long while...i've wrapped up my work stuff and somewhat ready to wait for Eliza's arrival.

And what best to do is start my maternity leave even before Eliza's here...and on our 2yr anniversary day. Not that we're doing much today, juz gonna spend our evening watching rented movies. We're tired of eating...or spending on eating too good food. Tho we had thought of going back to Club Chinois for their extravagant dinner...then again, mayb not..gotta save money.

I juz wonder what i'm gonna do the whole week if she doesn't want to come out till after sunday. gosh!!

Meanwhile...
- eat some healthy food. i love Cedele's meals but they aren't cheap...so juz an occasional indulgence. Salad: pear, celery, walnuts. Sandwich: rosemary chicken with cranberry
. and errr...ice chocolate. :P

- Ww's oldest nephew turns 5. we had fun with them while they're arnd. and Alger the youngest of the 3 is getting into character and being very cute. no.2 is still ever a chatterbox, he can't stop talking.

- we're sorting out of finances....which is quite a lot of numbers to work out. :( gets so confusing at times but Ww enjoys it.
- 2 couples got proposed this week! so excited for them. :D one exciting and elaborate proposal on thursday which i think next time such proposals, if done with the help of friends should get videoed down. oh but i'm so excited for them!!
- mum & sis is going to be back frm Atlanta tonight...yays!!! i should be able to stay awake to pick them up from the airport (with the help of Ww's dad & Ww)
- my feet are sore :( from too much walking on sunday. i dun feel like walking much anymore!!! it's carrying like 14-15kg of weight frm normal.
- i'm sick of reading up on pregnancy & babycare books. i think i read too much but i can't remem much either....oh dear....

birthdays and food

birthdays are great spending time to eat...so it was really quite an eatful 2 weeks for birthdays, weddings and our anniversary (1 yr 11 mths).
we celebrated Ww's birthday early eating at our fav fish&co, with our fav dish seafood platter for 2..and cakes after that at Cafe Cartel..this one is nice!!!

we don't usually give big stuff for birthdays...but cards and a lil stuff...so he found this lil magnet bear to add on to our fridge bears, now there's 3 of them! (our lil family)


and it's the family celebration cos Alger's birthday, (youngest of Ww's nephews), is just one day b4 his. and obviously they're not gonna get a generic cake...so both of them shares a CARs ice-cream cake...
the boys looking longingly at the cake

and me looking really fat...ooo..i've gained 12.3kg so far.


and many more other eat outs Ww has with his friends, and his lots of marshmallows he bought for his class

and last of it all yesterday had another bout of cake..this time bitter choc cake...which was a lil too sweet but he looked excited eating it anyway..time to lose more weight dear!




so i'm being slower nowadays, and reading some nov mums on the forum going to be due soon or some who has already delivered! gosh...

i'm still trying to slow down so as much as possible so i need to go home after work (no outings, extra stuff or dinners), to just rest. though rest is illusive sometimes, because it's just as difficult to get to sleep and it's not so easy to just fall asleep like how i used to. so i'll be tired but unable to figure out how to rest.
4 more weeks to go! we're praying Eliza comes out just nice around 1st week of the holidays, esp since my mum & sis will be overseas on my week 38 and not anytime after EDD (cos Ww will be very busy with courses and school stuff then). feels like the last lap of a marathon...and looking forward to our darling baby. :)

the day i felt dead tired

it could be because...
1) I didn't take my afternoon nap on sunday (rolled around in bed at my mum's place for a long time but felt more and more awake instead!)
2) I did the ironing after work on monday
3) I had tuition at Pasir Ris on tuesday
4) after tuition I couldn't sleep...i popped to bed at 1030 (immediately after bath!), talk to Ww a while, and rolled around for 1/2hr b4 deciding i should get something to eat, ate yoghurt & drank ribena, and went back to bed to try to sleep

and so i was so dead tired i dragged myself to work. i started dreaming of taking a half-day off or popping by the clinic to get mc. but i made it till lunch time, and then thru lunch, and eventually till the end of the day. i swapped my music min prac and happily hopped home for dinner and after this i'm going to sleep!! (i'm just too full to zzz now)

checking what's on my hp photos...and ah-ha! after a string of many cell bdays in this part of the year...we finally thought of taking a full cell photo on Eric's bday.

Check out Emicakes cakes.....yummilicious!! just that this time we forgot the candle...oops! sorrie Eric!


meanwhile, i'm perspiring as i write this...humid weather!
meanwhile, the clothes are piling up and calling out to us to wash them (my mil went go genting since monday). and i'm still too dead tired to do anything much. tmr no chance too...tuition again!!
meanwhile, Ww's away at BB meeting
meanwhile, i have started to waddle (= i'm growing larger and so is baby Eliza)

the only photos i took

2 days of MC, gives me time to sleep and catch up with a lil bit of
1) packing the study room which Ww says doesn't look like much has moved. but i cleared a lot of unwanted papers! and sorted out my documents drawers which i had previously chucked anything in any drawer cos i don't remember how it was to be organized. cleared one drawer of reno documents to now put baby related documents in.
2) weekend ironing that i didn't complete
3) clearing out 2 of our big drawers in the room to put baby Eliza's stuff.
4) bummed around
5) took afternoon naps. my sleeping hours was 21hrs in 2 days. good record. am quite proud of myself...cos usually i only sleep 14hrs or less in 2 days.

This was taken 2 weeks ago. Actually I made lunch (usual baked rice, that salad stick & some chicken chunk stick) for the missions committee who came for lunch & evaluation. but i guess i was so busy i forgot to take photos.
At night, i made fried fish popiah and we had dinner with mum & sis. Mum brought her nice soup which didn't really fit the dishes but was just as nice anyway. This is the spread...very easy to make cos you gotta make it on yr own....

whatever veg you wanna put in + jap mayo + the fried fish

Ww wrapping the fried fish popiah....

and the final product! it's always a skill not to overload the popiah...otherwise it disintegrates...


mmmm.....

Ww says he's gonna lose 5kg by end of the year or something...so i give him a stern glare when he wanted a 3rd serving of his mum's yummilcious noodles. ah...healthy food from now on..

Back to work tmr! and it's a long week :( cos i'll be out everyday after work.

3 mths more to go!

3 more months seems like a long long time still. and the heavier time to come too.
It has been a tiring week with all my weekday nights all out, working. Had tuitions for 2 nights (supposed to be 3 nights but i had to OT to rush for a presentation the next day). It's the school holidays you see...and one of my students is having her prelims next week...another is having it end of this month and i'm really really worried for her. We're just concentrating on maths only.. i would want to see her everyday if i could! there's too much to catch up, too little time..and as much as practice will help her, God please give her ability to understand.

Anyway it's been a tiring week. because of all the after work stuff, i'm just dying to go home early next week. home is such a great place.

Started antenatal classes at TMC which was somewhat useful although i do know some of the stuff talked about, stuff u can read in books. but the extras were helpful too and also so that Ww who has doesn't really read any pregnancy books or info (flip through is as much), will help him to know a bit more la.

Baby Eliza's gonna change our life, we know. and we can't wait to welcome her when it's her time to be born...excited to see her, hold her. no more er4 ren2 shi4 jie4, but it doesn't matter, because we know this little bundle of joy, this little gift of God will make our joy complete too.

there's this series on discovery home and health called "human stories: kids by the dozen" where they feature familes with more than a dozen children. gosh...it's unimaginable these days (tho they're all in US)....and quite unimaginable in SG tho. wonder how many children we'll eventually have, God willing.

then there's also when do i stop work. or whether i can work part-time at least. i would love to be there for Eliza as she grows, nuture for her and teach her...(and not let someone else do the job...as someone i heard said). my current job gets me out of the house 12hrs (+travelling time). so that means i can only get to see her min 4hrs only if i sleep 8 hrs a day. but if she sleeps i can't play with her. time is so precious.

yawns...time to sleep le...

Where to write post

With the baby blog somehow i dunno where to start writing this post...because so many things are about baby. I should call her Eliza now that we know baby's a girl. We decided on Eliza instead of Elizabeth cos we have a family relative who's also called Elizabeth..which is kinda weird to have the same name. Now we don't know what chinese name to give...so we're still thinking.

Meanwhile i'm enjoying this phase of my pregnancy while i still have energy and not so much weight to manage. (i've by now gained abt 6kg..and Eliza's only abt 400+ grams heavy in me only!). So this time i'm supposed to like start preparing Eliza's arrival before i get too heavy and tired to do so (and that would prob be abt Oct onwards).

Other than starting our antenatal classes end Aug, we've gotta go in search for a baby cot (which is gonna set us back about $300+ i guess). The only one big thing i think needs to be bought...otherwise we've got some baby clothes, and lil stuff like baby bath tub, sterilizers, etc, cos Ww's nephews comes over during weekends and we have some baby stuff around.

I'm still wondering whether to place baby cot in the bedroom or in the other room cos i have colleagues and friends who do up and prep their baby's room also so that they'll be used to their room. but if we put her in her room...gosh i wouldn't hear her if she cries...(i sleep like a log by the way...but i know things change). But we do have enough space in our bedroom to squeeze in the baby cot and prob a small cabinet for baby's stuff. so most likely we'll do that...

Also in search of this lullaby cd (which was a cassette tape then..) that my mum used to play for my sis to sleep when she was a baby...it's so nostalgic, really...both of us remember it so well. cos we'll still listen to it for years...until when we moved house..and all i remember seeing was the lyric book and trying to recall how the songs went. problem is still...we got no idea where the tape gone to. ww's student also gave us this really lovely cd, "I love you; Songs of love and blessing from a mother's heart" by Integrity Music..which i'll call it a lullaby cd cos the songs are so soothing and nice...much like the one my sis & i had. (thank you lots! ;) ) now i remember...time to get speakers for ipod for our room..so we can play these music.

Eliza's making movements and i'll tell Ww everyday..almost...such that he commented that i'll be giving him reports like that for the next 4 months to come...yah true. sometimes Eliza's movements feels like she's turing around inside, sometimes it feels like nudges or kicks, sometimes i wonder if it's hiccups. can't wait to see her. :D

As i feel Eliza growing i'm amazed by God...God who created us, God who made this way we rapidly grow and develop frm just cells into human beings like how we are today. Wouldn't He also have that joy of seeing us grow, just as every parent would; and wouldn't He also have that joy of his children to know Him, love Him and respond to Him...amazing how God always parallels many fundamental experiences we go through to understand Him better...no wonder we're made in His image.

"For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,"
Psalm 139:13-15