I love quiet moments

I've been home since 8pm. No one's home to disturb me much except my mind bugging me that i still have work due and i know i'm still procrastinating. i packed up that piling pile of newspapers, flipped quickly thru them, flipped today's newspapers as well, tore the page i want to read and keep but i know that will be like weeks and months later before i really read it again, packed that mess on the table, unpacked my weekend bag (and realized i left my spectacles at my mum's place, again).
i just don't want to touch my work. argh. i wondered when will i have a peaceful sunday afternoon to read newspapers, and just to take a afternoon nap. someone mentioned something about finding a sabbath. i turned to look at Ww and wondered if we do have any at all. i wish i have a day where i don't need to think (and worry) about work...and like do bo2. (then again when i do have that day, i wish i have something to do. so ironic!). maybe after this period when all my extra tuitions are over things will be easier, maybe when we move in to our new place and save time on all the ferrying around and going from house to house it would be better, maybe watever. i just feel a lil crappy now. and when i think that i can't start on any work till after 5pm tmr (coz i'll be going from site to site), i feel a lil stressed. and when i think i wanna spend more time w Ww after he comes back from the wedding dinner (which typically ends late), i dunno how much time we have left before we're too tired.
maybe i'm just complaining. because i got mountainous work to be done before monday ends. when will i limit myself not to work after work hours? maybe i'm venting because i have something that's bugging me to get it settled by tmr morning but i dunno how to. argh.

u know i need to find my sabbath. and rest.
there's play, there's travelling, there's eating, there's shopping, there's doing things i like, there's watching tv, but it's not rest. rest is being with God in quietness...being in His presence...communicating with Him my struggles...but i'm not doing it. i'm struggling to do it.

be still and know that God is God.