These are the days

i was thinking of blogging that it's has been sweaty and hot for many days and today it rained refreshing beautiful rain.

these are the days i feel like doing something else, these are the days i wish were holidays...sighs. these are the days i find myself aimless and lost, yet i'm somewhere. maybe it's because i don't have much at my job to do that's why i'm feelin like that. and i want to get something done but can't seem to. or is it because i'm losing my sense of purpose?

about work...it's been slow actually, and as much as i don't want to, i wondered if it would have been better if i've taken the other job. or maybe i just need to bear it through this period. i finding it a little difficult to articulate and figure out what i am feelin in this period of time. then there are times i wondered what it would be like if i were a teacher, or something else or someone else.

i'm itching to go for a holiday. i miss the times when we were in melbourne.

maybe all i want is just not to have any worries.

maybe i just need to talk it out to know what i'm being so sian about.

Lord help me to see this in your perspective.